This is one of my favorite songs. Its known as hammerheart from the band Bathory.

Now that the wind called my name
And my star had faded now hardly a glimpse up in the empty space
And the wise one-eyed great father in the sky stilled my flame

For the ones who stood me near
And you few who were me dear
I ask of thee to have no doubts and no fears

For when the great clouds fills the air
And the thunder roars from o, so far away up in the sky
Then for sure you will know that I have reached the joyous hall up high

With my bloodbrothers at side
All sons of father with one eye
We were all born in the land of the blood on ice

And now you all who might hear my song
Brought to you by the northern wind have no fear
Though the night may seem so everlasting and forever dark

There will come a golden dawn
At ends of nights for all yee on whom
Upon the northstar always shines

The vast gates to hall up high
Shall stand open wide and welcome you with all its within
And Oden shall hail us bearers of a pounding hammerheart

T9

The Basics Of Human Emotions.

I keep writing about all these things regarding emotions because i am an anti emotions guy.
Emotions can be actually divided into two basic catagories basic and complex, something like the color wheel. more complex colors can be derived from the basic three colors.No one can say what is a complex emotion, it depends on the perceptiveness of a person. For some Anger can be a basic emotion whereas for others it might be a complex emotion which may consist of jealousy frustration depression and many more things combined.
Another more easier classification of emotion is long-term emotion and short-term emotion. The best example of long-term emotion is "love"(which actually is losing its long term status). The short-term include surprise anger and every other emotions which can be triggered within seconds.
As i had written previously that emotions arise from your right brain and logic and practicallity from your left brain. These emotions according to some theories are results of the chemical "laucha" in our brains.
The major two theories which actually are able to define emotions and the origin of emotions are
1. Somatic theories
2. James-Lange theory
According to me the major five emotions which could actually describe a human being would be
1. Love
2. Joy
3. Anger
4. Grief
5. Fear
Fear is a personal favorite of mine. These five basic emotions give rise to other more complex emotions.
I have been latelly thinking from both the side of the hedge. A world without emotions and a world with emotions.
well actually a world without emotions would be atleast crime free. And the competition won't exist. But we would never be able to enjoy the reason for our existence. A world with emotions would just be exactly like the world we are living rite now. Full of atrocities and "attyachars". Well we can't complain of the life we are living.

Listen To your Brain

Its based on something i did today. It might have been a folly to some but to me it was another step closer to my fear. Well the only fear i have is the fear of authority. ie. the of fear people in authority. Nothing else in this entire world can ever scare me. Well coming back to the topic. When ever you make a decision you think from two sides.
1. From the logical and analytical side.
2. From the emotional side.
The first one gets processed in the left side of your brain and the second in the right. Well some might call the first reactions or opinions coming from brain and the second set of opinions or reactions coming from the heart. Actually heart can't think so its just a typo to put the things in a more better way.(Human beings can't accept the fact that the brain is emotional!!!!). Most of our actions are a mixed bag containing the logical and the emotional parts in equal or with a little up and down here and there. (For more info check http://www.viewzone.com/bicam.html ). There are issues which require emotions like in a case when you are being asked out for a date. And others which require logic like over coming your fears. The word 'fear' can be put under the subheading of emotions. As what ever you fear is illogical. Its nothing. And to prove it i will put in my case. As i live in a hostel and the rules being a little strict we can't leave the hostel premises after seven. By chance after dinner we found the main gates open and the guards having a chat. Me and my friend were having our regular after meals walk when we decided to just walk out of the gate. Once we got out then other second years(The worst batch in the entire hostel's history) too came out. We went for an ice cream (you know its not ice-cream) and thought it would be good to just take a walk outside. That was the time when i noticed that the gates had been closed and a fear started building up in me. One side of my brain said 'You are dead' and the other side said 'Who gives a fuck'. As i was with my friends i didn't want to behave like scared cat so i continued with them. When we came back we coolly opened the gate and went in. Nothing to fear nothing to be worried about.
So from the above incidence i came to a conclusion. Left is better than the right.
Emotions just show you a part of the entire scene. Just the part you would love to see or you are afraid to see... and the list goes on.. you can add ne emotional state to it. But the logical side or the analytical side lets you view the larger picture. The entire scenario without bias. So if you are making a decision which has to be unbiased listen to your brain and not to your heart. The decisions may seem wrong at that moment but helps out in the longer run. You would be thinking what this entire thing had to do with the incidence... well the decision was taken by the left side of my brain. And the gain was i confronted my fears and am a step closser to being fearless.

T9.

We can still remain friends.

This phrase may not sound unfamiliar to young people like me who have been running from post to pillar to get some one to fill in as the better half. As such this phrase holds no meaning at all. Because both, the person who said it and the person who heard it knows nothing is same as before. But the only thing which I can't still figure out is why do people use this phrase.
My first encounter with this word well happened a year back. Back then i was young and stupid. That doesn't mean i am young no more. People learn from their mistakes and i am no better than the others not to learn from my mistakes. This above phrase has been used as a tool by people who just can't say a "no"... basically because they don't want to lose the goodwill of other person. They never really know what the other person might make out of it, and they don't care either. There are intelligent species though who say it in a more "appropriate to the situation " way. Which till now i haven't encountered because i have never met any intelligent species who can play around with the mind of others. If i am to put this phrase " We can still remain friends." in a more appropriate way... whoever used it does not really want to lose the person as a person from whom help can be extracted just because the other person thinks He/She is still a friend... and most people are dumb enough to believe that. Well its not their fault.. it's in the nature. Its rather the nature of the Human beings to be like that. It is like a person falls for a guy/girl and is really mad about him/her. So he is willing to do anything for the guy/girl just in the hope that the phrase "We can still remain friends." will change just because he/she is being nice to the other guy/girl. WAKE UP SMELL THE COFFEE. It doesn't work like that. If a person ever uses this phrase its time for you to just drop that person and just try to be true to the phrase and nothing more than that. It will help a lot in the long run because every fall is the next step towards the goal. I respect the young age rather than the old age because the scope of learning is more in the young age rather than the old/middle age. And these are the little things which we as youngsters should learn. To Be strong on decisions and to never let others to play with the little and subtle mind of yours. And if anyone ever encounters a situation where he/she is forced to use the phrase... be a bit less human there. No one actually cares what you are or what you would turn out to be. So be strong enough to say a BIG NO rather than beating around the bush because you don't want to lose the goodwill of the other person.

The Other side

http://docs.google.com/Doc?id=dfrfwvjz_0dtcbd6gz

Why does every thing have to end

The biggest problems faced by teenagers and youths basically is the 'thing' known as love and relationship which according to me sucks the most. may be you guys can call it a sour grape effect like in the story of fox and the grape. but to be more frank on this love and relationships just suck. i am a little bit on conflict with god for actually creating human beings as sexual creatures. Life could've been more fun place to live in if these things jut happen at right times. Our society actually made up rules and regulations regarding the proper age for marriage and settling up in life and loads of other crap. But frankly they would have never thought about the attraction issue which arises as soon as we kids cross the adolescence era. Why do people fall in love. Just because we are nature's creation and we need to fall in for each other doesn't mean we have to fall in love. i have a friend of mine who digs for every other cute looking guys she meets. But she is unlucky still. She believes that life is incomplete without having any body to live for. ya exactly life is incomplete without any body to live for but that stupid girl doesn't know that this saying is only aplicable for people who are ready to settle in life not kids or half adults like us. well this one is for every other half adult lovers out there who think it is cool to be in love or rather its good to have someone to talk to...... believe me you are missing out on this life's best part by falling in love. you are missing out on the fun part of being alone. this time is the best time to actually discover yourself. rather than discovering other people. i learnt it in a rather hard way but still i learnt it. People may call me a dumb ass but i don't care because i am living this part of my life according to what i want to live it like. you have got your entire life waiting for you to spend it on someone special. don't waste your fun time actually liveing for someone else who would not even remember you once you get out of college. Live your life according to you and don't let others interfier in your life. ya i might sound a little lame. but its me people. and these are the wonderful truths.

The Fall

there were times i cried
there were times i tried
to stand up on my legs
and face the world
there were times i knew
i was close to you
to hold your hand raise up

cos i know...
i can be what i want
but i fear to fall
i fear to change
the way i live my life
i want someone to raise me up
and help me walk again.